We love Venezuela. We began a ministry there in 1998. There is now a Seminary, 5 Medical Clinics and many Methodist Churches. In 2015 we returned from a trip and suddenly the government there decided to not allow any more visas for religious workers. So we have not been able to return since.
We have prayed for that to change and there is now that possibility. We have so many people there we love and want to see. There are new babies to hug, new churches to visit, old friends to spend time with and just be in our second home.
However, for some reason, I am now finding it difficult to get excited. For lack of a better way to put it, I am afraid! It’s not like I have never been there, it’s not like I fear flying (although it’s not a happy thing for me!), it’s not that I don’t trust God. I don’t know what is causing this fear. It is real and palpable.
Warren is trying to be understanding and has told me it is my decision. He is going whether I go or not. The problem is he will be there for a month. That would be hard.
I am praying for peace and for my fear to disappear.
I follow “my gut”. I figure that’s God talking. He’s never steered me wrong.
ReplyDeleteI don’t really “trust my gut” about traveling because I often have bad feelings about specific trips. But it’s just how I handle the knowledge of risks. I’ve gone on all the trips I was nervous about and they turned out fine.
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